Remember 

This pain doesn’t end, it only increases with every single second I’m alive... my plexus has taken over my whole body, I don’t even feel normal anymore but that’s the price you pay for giving it all... this world wants to cave me in, I’ve been here so many times before that it’s become that normal to live in the uncomfortable rather than the comfortable. There’s only small sparks of light, so I’m holding on to hope for dear life... dear life I don’t need saving, I’m struggling but holding on to all these lessons, all the past mistakes, the depths of misery tried to drown me so I’m swimming with the sharks trying to find a way out, this is what’s it’s been like since I can remember, it will be like this forever, I know you want to give up but you made a pact with yourself, reread that credence you wrote to remind yourself of where you’ve came from and what you have to do.