Inside Wars

It's easy to say

Easy to brag.

Easy to give in.

but hard to go out.

      You feel like your insides is slowly crumpling down with questions you can't answer. The soul is slowly telling you to give up yet your body seems to disagree and continues to pursue anything your mind wants you to do and achieve. Your soul tells you to stay still and your body quickly contradicts it. You have words you can't say. Words you can't organize and words you can't put into words. A meaningless and empty cup of spirit which no one will ever understand how bitter and roasted your experiences are. You were covered with shiny and glittery picture of a happy one and people always see you like that but cannot see you're broken from the inside unless they hold you and look better and deeper. It's easy to say you can do it where infact as time passes by, you slowly lose the energy you created to power up your soul. As things go all at the same time, you cannot concentrate, decide on what to do first. You are confuse and slowly disorganizing anything your heart builds in you, but then again, you continue to work and don't let those crumpled strings get in your way and soon it will be fixed in their own as you think it will.

Tried to close your eyes.

Tried to rest.

Tried to understand.

Tried to grasp.

but still billions away.

     Anything you want to achieve will be in the wrong way and were guided by the things you didn't expect are the actual blessings. Guided by the things you didn't think will be of light and sword to you, guided by the things you didn't feel has a great impact and lessons for you to uncover but then again you complain but accepted it and hope it will always be the right way.

      From this moment on, you slowly think of why is it hard to live? Why is it hard to suffer even if you have the faith to everything will go back in their rightful place? You just can't answer and you let those unheard questions be of waste and disturbs you when it smells.

     It's those inside wars you have to conquer.