Tired being judged so let me out

It's not new for you out there to hear sentiments like this one. Yeah, I know this ain't new.  You heared about this issue hundred times from different individual all over the world. Like its already part of the society. 

I end up writing this because of hunger. Yes, I'm hungry. Its easy for me to just eat and ease my hunger but something came in to my mind. I wanted to eat but I felt afraid that the food I am going to eat might add extra pound on me. I felt sad. I felt betrayed by my own mind. Betrayal is real.  You can't blame me though. Body shamers were everywhere.

Lately I've got so much anxiety and I don't know how to break them. One of these anxiety is that I am fat. I always get body shamed, I just got used to it. But lately I felt different being criticized because of my weight. I am tired of it. Tired of accepting harsh words, tired of understanding these "judges" who'se been judging the hell out of me. 

Seriously, we don't want to be in this fat, ugly and heavy body. Who would wanted this extra? I guess none. Believe me it is painful to wake up in the morning and convince yourself that this day would be a great day. Nah. Not for curvy girls like me. Even we were sourrounded by loving people and wonderful love ones, the world is still harsh.Others believe that it is our fault why we became like this ugly. Others believe it is a curse. JK, others find it genetically, scientifically or what so ever. 

So here we go, can you do me a favor? Please when you see a fat girl, when you bumped into a curvy lady whether beautifully dressed, poised in classy dress or just wearing PJs or regular clothes, please don't judge. Don't look at us like we committed a crime. Don't give us that stare. Hello!!! We are also humans. We got feelings bro! We got it dude! We also have the right to have that bangs or wear high heels. 

The world is already bad for us, please don't add up to the demons we're fighting with. We know you've got a good heart in there. Show some kindness. 

We also deserve compliments like "Hey! You look gorgeous!"  "Woah! Stunning in that dress!" "Slaying in that beauty!" Who might knew that covered in this layer of fat is the body of an indivudual who can formulate cure to epidemic deseases coming out , who can invent something that would benefit the world, who can figure out and solve global crisis, who can build stronger ties among nations and race. But because she's being bullied, criticized and body shamed, she is afraid to talk, limited and can't move and being stopped to share her inner thoughts to the unconventional world she's trapped with.