I thought I was already okay

I always share what's bothering me in a manner of joking and teasing. I rarely share about what has happened with me in a serious and deep way.

I avoid that way of sharing because I don't want to sink any more deeper in my own thoughts that will surely leave me hurting with my hopes up. 

I share in a manner of joking or teasing because I don't want to make a big deal out of things. 

My big brother started seeing this girl whom I feel is not very welcome within the family but is well respected for is considered a guest of ours. 

I asked him personal questions concerning their relationship. 

But what happened was that our conversation made a complete 180 degree turn.

I don't know what came to me but I told him what caught me up - the pains of being in an unrequited love. 

I smiled with pain in my eyes as he said this to me: "stop re-reading again and again the page where it left you hurting, how will you move on if you will not turn to the next page of it? Time will come when the two of you will talk, wait until you've turn to that page or chapter of your life. Just keep on turning the page as you read, stop re-reading and reliving again and again the pain you are feeling. It is as simple as that. Just turn to the next page or chapter"

I cried, I cried all the pain that was bottled up within my heart that I never knew still existed.