My Life Objective: To Learn

okay so, I know the typical, “We don’t go to school to learn nowadays, we just go to pass” and all that sad truth stuff. 

But honestly? I don’t feel that way. Well there are really brief moments where I think, “Is this really enough?Is this worth all the suffering?” but I’ll be immediately like, “what the hell?” 

I’m able to learn this stuff? Free knowledge so I can like? Be able to throw random facts? and I think it’s really useful when youre sad or when youre having an existential crisis. Because knowledge about the little stuff about the world makes it more interesting? 

*trigger warning: suicide*

Let’s say, I wanna kill myself? I think, why? and waste all this time and effort not being able to put my knowledge to future use? It’s really a waste.

Don’t you want that feeling of pride for yourself that, when you look at a flower, you’re gonna be like “Oh a nice flower, oh it undergoes photosynthesis, you look up to the sky and you’re like wow, what a huge universe i am in. I am just a small person.” It keeps your beliefs in check and still sets you to your needs, remind you that whatever youre facing right now is temporary and does it matter in this really long cycle called life and this huge world and it can even give someone hope??

Knowledge is Power. It gives me wisdom. What does it mean for you?