NEVER GOODBYE

          I catch myself staring in the distance with tears spilled, dreaming of what could be; what could it be like for you to know my love and fall in love with me.

         Would you mind if I ask, can it be me?

         There is only one thing I am perpetually hoping, and it is to be with you. I understand that I am not the only one who is after your heart but my eyes will forever fixed on you. The words, I love you, that my heart always whispers keeps coming back. If you can just tell me you love me, it’s worth a fight for me to keep holding on but this love will be an endless plea with no ears that will listen. I fail to catch my heart from falling when you can never feel this love with the light years of distance I have to you. 

      But I am beginning to embrace the distance upon unfathomable seas and ask if it’s okay to let go. Yet it is a matter of loving you without asking for anything, I am trapped with this hell bound fantasy that just one day you can tell me you love me and be in the battle with me, in a fight where fools lose and courageous fight till the end. If you can only tell me the words I long to hear, tell me you love me and be with me in this fight perhaps this love I have for you can be a love without a sad melody, without tragedy walking towards its direction.

     If only this plea won’t only be just a hopeful call, I can call you mine even just for a bit… just once. But the battle is over, I can pick nothing but the broken pieces of my shattered still beating heart calling your name, always beating in your direction.

    Answers run away from me, and even if I run to you answers will nevertheless be sealed from me. I grasped the understanding that I can never even take the thought of letting this love go, for this love is the air and the very definition of the countless rhythm of my heartbeat.

       I will always hope for the day that your eyes will mirror my gaze that I will no longer be after your heart for I am already home, that I have become your home.

       It’s never goodbye my love, for my love has got you safe and sound. It’s never the end for this love will be eternally your home.