I N T H E E N D

In the end it wasn’t me who will end up wiping away your tears, the one you’ll greet when you get home, in the end it’s not me you will show your heart to; the one who will witness how your eyes sparkle while laughing at something you love, not the one whose silken jet black hair your hands will be playing. In the end it isn’t me who your heart will beat for, the one your eyes will seek in the midst of noise; I will never become the one you will search for solitude, calm and security. In the end, it will never be my heartbeat you will long to hear nor the hands you will hold for eternity. Even so,...

YOUR HAPPINESS

How many shooting stars should I wish for you to become mine? If I long to make you feel my infinity, how long does forever make? How many nights do it take for me to wait? For me to place your hands upon this heartbeat solely yours? The exquisite break of my heart every time I realize how we are infinitely worlds apart. How my earth revolves on a different axis against your world, my time running so painfully slow while yours flow in a rhythm I could never dance into. I can only watch you from afar, painstakingly accepting the bittersweet reality that I was not made to be...

IT HURTS

It hurts because you can never be mine. Sometimes I wonder if words will ever come out the moment my eyes meet yours, I will never know how else my heart will break when it’s already broken. As moments passed, my soul disheartened with the thought of you loving somebody but me. My heartbeats wavering, heart slowly, painfully breaking. But I know that if I give up, I will never know how it feels like to be trapped upon your gaze. It may be hard, tears will drown my voice calling upon your name, calling upon deaf ears. It hurts because you are not...

ONE DAY, SOMEDAY

I have not seen anything like the smiles you own, with the small dips of your mouth towards happiness I understood that you’ve come a long way to be in the world you wanted to be. Nothing seems like the fireworks exploding in your eyes when you see the dreams you craft into reality, I am struck with the intensity of the life you always wanted to live. In your eyes are worlds I would live to discover, worlds I pray to live with you, and the worlds I hope I could be a part of. But come may be the day that we see each other face to face I hope you will hear the soft screams of my heart, the pounding...

G O O D B Y E

     It took me a while to choose myself, it took a lot of time to realize that with every bit of love I give, it should equally be provided to myself. With every silent break of my heart within the small moments I have spent loving you, I realized that breaking my heart would be hopeless if you see nothing of its worth.       It took me a while to understand that loving you doesn't mean losing a part of myself; my eyes were blinded with the hope that love conquers all... it doesn't. Love may conquer all if two people are willing to work it out.        Yes, love is never enough.       The broken frame of the future we try to picture together could never be put together, the...

HERE, MY LOVE IS HERE

See, the girl who looks upon you... Feel, the love she has for you.... It may sound so wrong, the cliches must have been a replay to cumbersome movies, but I do love you. The girl who never knew how to feel, the girl who is numb shaped human, the girl who could not feel anything at all.The girl who thanks you, your existence for she never felt so alive. I love you more than you will ever know. I love you more than I expect myself to be. It's the way you make me feel that what I feel is real, the way you come into my dreams and the way you...

RIGHT HERE FOR YOU

I look back and try to remember, slowly tracing my steps to where this love began. Where did my first heartbeats become yours? Where did my first tears you have never seen became yours? Yet your eyes, your eyes a screaming desperation of the dreams you wish to live, of the hopes you wish to fulfill; then I realized my love has started ever since your existence became a part of my world. I am the planets spinning around you, the stars looking up to their moon... and from then I understood that I'll always uphold you. I will guard your dreams, the crazy things that ignites the passion in your...

I AM...

I’m all the wounds, the scars, the journey and the destination it took me to love you. I can only hope that you could hear my heart beating, could only hope that you could pay attention; I could only hope that I could feel your heart against my touch. I could only hope that your heart is for my eyes only, the scars you wish to hide, the demons you try to chase away, the walls you try to build… I could only hope that you will see me, for I will always choose to come undone in front of you. I could only hope that when loneliness try to drown your light away, I will be there wiping...

HER STRENGTH

Her strength may not move mountains but her strength could hold your fragile and gentle heart. You will see her smiles shining like the sun glowing on a clear blue sky but not the blood dripping from her heart as she pick her broken pieces. Questions will drown her voice as she tries to walk down the lonely road of loving you, but the road she took will always be her happiness. For you are both her happiness and her tears; her goodbyes without her first hellos. Your heart, your soul, your mind... the ones she longed may not come but her love will keep all her hopes...

CLOSE TO NEVER

When you held her, imprisoned in the warmth of your arms I saw how your face lit up chasing the cold winter away. I only wished your happiness, until you felt that last beat of your heart knocking on your chest for one last time. Though my love to reach upon your doorstep may be close to never, you will always have my heart-- the heart that will relentlessly love and honor and guard all your dreams in any way it could. My love, letting you know this love may be close to never, letting you know of my existence may be close to never but the impossibility makes me long for you more. I am selfish, I am...

I MAY BE ON HIATUS IN SOME TIME BUT THE SOMEDAY FOR MY NEXT WORKS WILL COME. I'M MAKING SURE TO CREATE ONES YOU'D REMEMBER NOT ONLY AS A GOOD WRITE UP BUT SOMETHING THAT HAS MOVED BOTH YOUR HEART AND SOUL. PLEASE LOOK FORWARD FOR IT!

To The Man I Lost Myself

          In the world where love is a broken frame, I am captured with the honest moments this love I have for you knocking in my window blades. I can't help but wonder what it would be like to be in your thoughts.         But to the man I lost my heart, I was able to find my purpose; to the man I have lost my soul, I found my balance. You were not the missing piece that completed me but the one emphasizing the beauty of my existence.         I am lost but found.         I was lost with my love. Lost to the man whose heart is bruised but beating painfully. To the man whose soul is more than my words could define , more than my breaths could take and more than the...