My head is just a pure mess. My feelings are all over the place and I can't stop my tears from running anymore. I've been through this before... It always displays the same way. I guess I'll never learn.

I know it's time for me let go. This love does not bring me peace anymore. It feels like it's a battle ground every damn time. You always hold me down, always acting like you're the one that keeps me breathing when you're the one who's drowning me.

It was you, maybe it will always be. Nothing feels real anymore, you get drunk try to forget me and I stay home going insane. One day I won't be here waiting for you. You always took me for granted and you still do.

If I knew back then what I know now... Maybe I wouldn't have stopped talking to you, maybe I would've tried to work things out. Or perhaps I would go anyways and leave you behind, because you never knew how to treat me right.

I hated when you said you loved me because I know you never actually did. I never believed your words, just 'cause your actions told me the other way around.

One step at a time, that's what I tell myself when my head can't get enough of you. Even now, after all these years your words are still present. The ones you hold against me like a loaded gun... I swear they used to phase me, and hurt would consume. But now I don't feel a damn thing towards them.

Tell me you love me, if you don't then lie. And now I realise everything was just a tale, a story you were telling to place me as the fool. I wish I could say all these words I have inside, but I know they wouldn't change a damn thing about your mind.

I used to think you were never going to find someone like me, that was the only thing that kept me sane for a while. Today I'm sure you have done your emotional blackmail to others, mind games and hints were always your signature.

The truth is it wouldn't have mattered how much I tried, you drainned me every time. I used to think I had lost you, that you were the only one for me in this lifetime. I used to tell myself that if we were over in this one, we would meet in the next and finally get the happiness we deserved.

I was delusional. I was dreaming about something that would never be real. My head is still a mess and my heart still beats faster when I hear your name. The fire I felt used to burn bright, but today is nothing more than a small flame.